Feigned smiles,inner cries, heartfelt lies

because the grumps got the better of me,

and the ritual midnight boredom started eating into me,

we turned to inspire.

personally decorated, hand written quotes , of which were later slipped into random mailboxes :D

it was an unlikely remedy for the down and out.

"girl,you bring out the best in me "

this is a double finger situation

FUCK HADY!!

i'm thankful,
and there isn't a slightest bit of regret
but,
for now, i'll indulge in the past
cause it was once beautiful.

cut of brilliance

gallons of bubbly juices, sweet smooches

and

quirky dances

truly,a champagne supernova :D

walk the talk

"I know this is what I am to do,

I know this is how its meant to be

and now,I'll walk from here."

It's the making of many foreseen spontaneous evenings ;)

and I'm guessing it aint all that bad,

new horizons to explore..A lil on the edge,but otherwise..

i'm very much trying to contain my excitement.

Of late my nights seem to go lighter on me since its been preoccupied with

work and massive uploads of friends,the oc and grey anatomy.

surprise,surprise!!I'm finally done with satc .WooHoo :D

A combination of love and aggression,

you're that burning passion

table for three

I love that despite all you still get me,

I love that our intellectual insanity's still intact,

I love that our hearts stay entwine,

I love that this still feels right,

I love, that.

an adopted intervention,

resulting in countless self thrown dinner parties

and a sudden obsession with cooking

with my head chef of lurve ;)

though I would say I don't make a good apprentice

or an aspiring cook in that matter..

but she''s been exceptionally patient*kisses*

and soon I'll single handle my very own .

"no worries dear,you'll still be the host.

and you,when I do, you'll be wishing you were back home ;p"

a thousand ninety five

living under false pretense

the unwanted and unspoken has been told.

suppressed emotions still at large ,

I fear the consequence of the outcome.

ihateyou

ihateeverysinglebitofthisfuckofalifeyougive

whywhenitakealeapoffaithyousomehow

managetodragmebackdown.

screwyouandyoutooformessingmylife

backupwithyourunwelcomedreappearance

soherei'mgladyoumadelifealivinghell

In limbo

without coming off as a sounding like a total airhead,

I'll just come right out and say this.

As already in the known, I'm a total computer doink.

and well figuring out one of those

msn convo skype kinda thingy was like a huge step.

so,I applaud myself ^_^

anyway,it was great just hearing your voice again,

and if there wasn't enough emphasis,

i really miss you :)

with all the caffeine and drama overload,

it kinda got me thinking

i never saw walking away from the past as an option

but maybe it was the best

distance and time..

It was all that's needed.

and true enough it was..But yet

for a totally different outcome.

3 years, I survived that,

I survived you..

I'll survive me

but today you finally drifted away :)

in your shadow

thank you,

for the huge display of affection with your immense lack of faith in me.

thank you ,

for ruining my morning,with false accusations.

thank you ,

for constantly questioning my judgment.

thank you,

for being negative .

thank you,

for not listening.

thank you,

for reminding me that I'll always be indebted.

thanks dad,cause you make me

feel like a better person.