rainbow connection

black skies, we'll douse ourselves in explosive light

my flavour of the week

Love munchies

I miss the perpetualnights,

with nothing to do but you.

fight my battle

the perfect lie? maybe.
with such crisis at hand..
will you take the words for what its written or
do you investigate futher?
will love reign supreme,
will logic override all ?
how much truth is there,really.
denial would never be a solution..or isit the only.

possibilties of the unavoidable
where's that one solid necessity?
where is the faith.

pink marmalade

misstletoey kisses and candycanelike romance

thank you,santa :)

"Starve the Nazi"

Make poverty history,feed the world.

get the hint ?

juice this

. my rhythmic delight.

Yeah balls

my awesome sauce.

Gothem.Inclusive of retrobobing,hiphopgroving and dilinquentdancing.

despite the absence of my usual intoxications..the night turned out right.

with precious time spent catching up on the latest and recapping the good'ol' moments.

alltogether,a different kind of high.That onceinalifetime euphoria.

I"VE MISSED you and u and yew and chu..

plans,finally settling in place.

jan's back, jeeven's back..

and tomorrow,its gonna be love <3

no time to waste..so,shoo!!

stick to it ..or i'll shit on your birthday cake!!

alright,i'm a tinsy bit gila *~*

The Merry Express

5 days to christmas..

way toomany issues,

gilamanja,

unsent x'mas cards,

unpackaged gifts

Christ!!

BUTbutbut..

i've reajusted my drawkcab sleeping habits.

so,at least something good came out of it.

i've never been happier :)))

it helps being a hopeless romantic.

Christmas with you,we'll make it work.

okay,I'm gonna start jumping on the bed.Weeeee!!

fall off my bed

I've been ridiculously paralyzed these past days.

unfinished, imperfected and incomplete.

the ideas constantly flow..but i procrastinate.

making plans has never been so dreadful.

anticipation of the upcoming.

you said:"3 days,2 nights and all's gonna be alright."

may the days we share be merry and bright :)

this Christmas,i prefer stickingtothebasicS.

friends they come..and go.

its a sad analogy that we accept in time.

3 strikes and OUT.

over and again

the folks impromptly packed and jetted off to Bintan for their apparent 24th year.
giving me only a quarter of a days notice.
yet another repetition.
the girl ,the house and her puddles.

along the way,they vanish.
so here I stand,
staring at the past ,
apprehensive to grasp what the future holds.

afraid to let go.

"when I was little ,I ask my mommy what would I be?
would I be pretty?
would I be famous?
this what she said to me,
oh sala sala whatever will be will be
the future's not ours to see "

be my reflection, show me what I fail to see,
crippled inside out ,I seek refuge.

wish i may

.please me to perfection.

venom

it only gets harder.

everynight she waits by the telephone..

Toy soldiers

dispersing crowd,

amany farewells,sobbing parents..

I watched as he turned his back.

"promise me you won't cry."

"promise.''

tears ? What tears..

I apologize.

a brave front was all I could keep

cause within ..

she was crying a river.

fifteen days and fourteen nights

I'll hold you to that.

Perhaps

coming clean.

insecurities unleashed,

and now the days spent only lead up to the expected.

how is it possible that we love yet lack faith?

why isn't there an instant cure for heartache?

induce in me this immediate anesthesia.

pop a pill, and pray it kills

Acting as if you're top notch..

like you're way above ..

your look towards life and your ridiculous obsession ..

disgust me.

listen up,dick.

I'm ashamed,cause I can do so much better.

fuck it,you motherfuckingsonofabitch.

Stick a radar in my head

bounteous boundaries,would you know which not to cross?

when will you draw the line ?

they say:"it's now or never,break or live with it."

being shallow ain't a flaw..

its a genetic defect in every walking mortal,

close yet remote.

my sense of direction is constantly swaying.

when will i measure up?

3 days.

smiles and frowns

its the alcohol

(kudos to joe, for keeping this memory*smiles*)

A blink of an eye and its been close to two years.

backtrack..

weeklyindus3, intoxicatingblackcat ,ladiesnightatblack ,beerbarrelcascaden..

weird but they seem to be there when i'm at my lowest.

for them,i'm grateful.

i suppose life works in ways unforeseen.

what breaks you,only makes you.

i adore that bliss of sweet slumber close to you :)

ditzy glamour

desperate to get away..

far from all the drama ,

and further from my eversomundane lifestyle.

i figured..amuchanticipated self-holiday,inclusive of spluging sprees and reckless partying.

the earlier the better,the sooner the happier..

so i'm hoping tomorrow :)

i love these spontaneous getaways.

if trying my darn best is never gonna be enough..

why even bother?

i'll stick to the things i'm best at.

shopshopshop'in and partypartyparty'in till the resentments sink.

30 days ..the countdown begins ^-^