exhile

I've been confined to anything quadruple.

those stone washed four walls,

the 36 inch entertainment cube

and the radiated square screen *~*

The thirst for her existence continues to lust

and the given fails to quench.

with way too much time on her hands..

a zillion more surfaces.

she radiates of sunshiny persistence..

yet what lingers beneath is the dark cloudy truth.

"how long has it been that we've smiled from within?"

Black coffee

I overlooked the various red flags..

and now..I've come to a screeching halt.

did I not see the approaching dismay?

maybe I did ..

but reality being the sole enemy

I retreated back to my only assurance..Denial.

now,feed on my consequences

face the music

and I'm left to pick up the shattered pieces.

has it become that

even being brought up in a world..

so cold and cut throat,

we never drink it sugar free.

belittle

and like strangers,

ignorance when paths crossed.

but with hearts aligned ..

mine bled..

and it bled for us.

i still remember..

Lost continents

Affirmation settles..and reality moves in .

and without realization I've become the unintended roommate.

spf negligence

cos i'm way too exausted ,

i'll let the visual essentials,do my talking ;)

daybreak

as i lay there ..

wishing maybe, by a god given miricale..

the possibilities could be real.

reconsidering every bit of my consequences..

i saw no further future.

i want the summerhighs,the impulsive loving and all that comes around .

so i'll see away from the pending disappointments,

held on resentments

and give this whole newfound normal its second glance.

* fabulously gay *

'dottie' resemblance

my designer drug

Kiss the girl

embracing every bit of the given,

passion and excitement rapids beneath.

transported back to the lifestyle of reckless commitmentless behavior.

however a part still yearns for that certain stability..

I'm after all ..Yet another emotional wreckage.

"tell me how long till I fall..Into the arms of that one perfect star."

"one more for love, just one more for love."

laid

"i say ..five!"

"ten!"

"all"( thrice in a row)

and ..yes we know who the drunk one was ;p

right? lil miss"knowitALL"

paraded integrity

i wish to fall..

fall hard,

and shatter that enguish.

its diffiicult to let go..knowing no ones there to catch you.

taking the plunge?

i'm clinging on by a strand,

but,when have risk been a subject of matter.

so i'll do what has to be done.

take away my safety net .crash.

Illusive exposure

yet sometimes I'm the irony of it all

it's closing time,

and its time for us to say goodbye.

biatchslap

it's depressing

when you realise the majority of attached girls ,

have their lives revolved around one single person..

the boyfriends.

i mean.. ya, u love him and all,and i know he's a piority..

but could you,

do us girls a favour and get a life.

contradictive relapse