Landslide on the upper eastside

just like that freckle at the tip of my nose,

with my countless foolish attemps at hide and seek..

and

the many times I contemplated its removal,

it stayed rooted..Accepted.

I guess as small and insignificant I perceived it to be..

it'll forever be that one dot of significance,my centre of acceptance.

so for today,tomorrow and the pending unpredictable..

you'll stay and I'll sway,

away.

Burning pages,trade these ashes

Is there a greater power?

one which can't be defined by the laws of logic and science.

where miracles do happen and prayers answered.

As a child I grew up with bible stories impounded in my head.

and somehow inbetween memory verses and Sunday school,

my heart stopped listening .

religion lost its belief.

I've been gone for far too long,

drifted along for eons and

now,like a wayward soul..

I want that belief,

I need to believe..

"guide me back to the river I once turned my back from,

quench this thirst I so desire."

And it all spiraled down to that

one last breath

Up those sleeves

I can barely hold the words in my mouth,
I can hardly grasp the anticipation,
I can feel the perpeptual butterflies,
I can live a fairytale,

I can love....
I can play bluff.

and I can't keep up a game of charade .

Down that path and out with wrath

Have we been too fast to pass judgment.
phone conversations,first impressions
why do we have judgment at our fingertips

while it seems awkwardly impossible to make room for compliments and encouragements.

we more then welcome it,so why the irony ?

feels like I've been slipping inbetween.

the fear of the future ,

so I dwell in the past and

I settle for the present cause it's pleasant.

once more,that familiar smell of confusion

and that stentch of despair.

it gets me hurting,all this while..all this thinking,

all the feelings,and it never got us anywhere.

"spin me round like a dream,like on the movie screen"