irony

We've made 10 months ,
yet ironically..i feel like we're drifting further apart.
i know it'll only be a matter of time.
but i'm more than willing to hold on, even if its for a little while.

lonliness constantly sets in.
and when i need you most, why does it seem like you're never there.
i miss your 'iloveyous",
the cuddles to sleep,
the sweet morning messages,
the fact that you'll always stand by me.
maybe you do, but why do i get the feeling its forced.

how is it that i'm hardly happy..even when life's taking a turn for the better.
"happy" 10 month anniversary.ilu.
i guess now i know,
i'm my own assurance.