the longest goodbye

"i wanna do a tattoo."
"okay, wat?'
"your name."
"don't be crazy"
"why?'
"you don't know if we'll last."
a part of me withered and died...
knowing wat we had would never be a forever.

as i watched you lay there in sweet slumber,
i dreaded the thought of never holding you to sleep again.
that never would i feel your warm embrace once again.
that never would i hear your sweet voice and witty comments,
and..never would i be able to tell you i love you.
it made me not want this to end.

walking away was the most painful decision ..
but i believe its the most sensible.
its time i learn to rely on me..
its time to let you go.

sorry for the pain and heartache,
sorry for the broken promises.
sorry, cause sometimes its harder to say goodbye.

"a real beautiful house,you,me, two lil neils,one lil janna ,pudddles"
thanks for the sweet sweet illusion, it still made me feel like life was perfect.
and i thank you for that lil piece of heaven.