Matching faces with fear

I headed down to the columbarium ,alone.

I needed to face my fears ,deal with my grief, and overcome my guilt.

its been 3yrs..Yet I could never bring myself a yard closer.

avoiding any emotions ,never admitting how much it hurt.

as I walked my self down the aisle..that overwhelming smell of death,

edging closer..the battle between the head and the heart.

All this while you think,maybe..It might all just go away,

but it never does.

"I'm sorry I wasn't there..

I'm sorry I let you down

I'm sorry I was being a coward."

closure.